Alright, let me just brush off all the dust that’s collected on this blog over the last few months. Let’s face it, I don’t know what I’m doing with this thing. But that could change over time as I want to do a better job of managing my social media activity this year. Though I have to admit that I’m not much of a writer and lean more towards visual expression. I know, it’s a big shocker that a visual artist leans towards visual expression. But it does explain why my Instagram account sees more action than this blog thing.
This new year has been though. I was in a bit of denial but by mid January I had to admit that I was having a resurgence of my depression. Nearly losing my dear cat Mochi in an unexpected medical emergency, reuniting with treasured friends and then watching them leave again, tight finances, and the deterioration of my father-in-law’s health were all building up a weight on my heart. The good news is now that I’ve addressed the issue I can work towards improving it. Easier said than done but I have an amazingly supportive husband and a patient, loving God who has helped me get through far worse.
That being said, I’ve started a type of journaling that I’m hoping will hold me more accountable in getting things done. It’s a way to help me keep track of activities I want to accomplish each week whether it’s getting in the studio to draw or paint, cooking and cleaning up the house, reading my bible, getting some form of a work out, or managing my social media, I can easily record every little victory. I’m also hoping it will help me keep a record of moments and memories worth celebrating. I know I’ve accomplished a lot in my life but when I look back I tend to remember the negative more than anything positive. As you can imagine, this makes it harder to build any enthusiasm for the things I want to achieve. The journalling is a work in progress but I’m eager to see it through. I actually got the idea for this journal from KiraKiraDoodles video on YouTube. Check out the video HERE and see if she inspires you. I kept the design similar to hers but once I get a feel for how I want my journal to work for me I can better customize it to my personal style.
I’m already back to work in my studio playing with a new calligraphy brush and experimenting with watercolors on an drawing I did over a year ago. I’m not worried about creating a finished piece but just having fun playing with paint, something I haven’t done in a while.
I’m hoping to make some changes this year and I hope to keep a proper record of it here. Maybe.